Did I Say That Wrong? My Brain Thinks So.

I’ve always felt most myself around the people who get me. The close friends, the family, the ones who’ve seen me at my weirdest and still choose to sit next to me on purpose.

Put me in a room full of strangers though? Nope. I shrink. I overthink. I scan every word I say like it’s being graded.

Social situations are a minefield.
My brain goes full spiral:

• Did I talk too much?

• Did I not talk enough?

• Did I say something dumb?

• Did I make that weird?

• Am I annoying?

Usually followed by a sleepless night of rehashing a 12-second conversation from 3 days ago that I am well aware has been forgotten by everyone but me.

It’s taken me a while to realize: this is my ADHD.
The perfectionism. The over-apologizing. The brain that replays every interaction like a blooper reel.

It’s not just how I process tasks, it’s how I process myself.

I care so deeply about people. That’s the good part.
The hard part?
I carry things I shouldn’t. I try to fix what’s not mine. I take things personally that were never meant that way.

But here’s what I’m learning:

• I can’t control how people see me.

• I don’t need to fix every feeling.

• Not everything is about me (ouch, but true)- You know who you are if you have told me this millions of times before = )

Most people aren’t analyzing me.
They’re busy wondering if they were awkward.
It’s oddly comforting.

So I’m trying to let go a little more every day.

I’m not perfect. I never will be.
But I’m worthy. Even when I stumble. Even when I retreat. Even when I overshare or get quiet or mess up the timing.

This is ADHD.
It’s messy. It’s emotional. It’s deeply human.
And I’m learning to meet myself with the kind of grace I give everyone else.

Give yourself grace, you deserve it.

~Lynny